Oh the Cultural Offerings of Lutz.

Went to The Rack down in south Tampa.
Got way lost on the way there.
Mapquest should really be shut down already.
Had two Bud Lights, sushi and nachos.
Sushi was great.
Nachos sort of sucked.
LSU beat OSU.
Geaux Tigers.

Met two boys from Lutz while I was there.
Country accent.
Hicks all the way.
Sweet enough, just a little naive and dumb.
One was a soldier back from Iraq.
I think he goes back soon.
I felt bad for blowing them off.
In truth, stupid men just don't work for me.
You can be country and not stupid.
You don't have to know about fine things
or have a large vocabulary to hang with me.
You do however need common sense.
Something I know and in my desire to be nice often let people slip with.
No more.
I need to do what is correct for me.
It scared me.
I would have given one of those boys my number if they had asked.
What would we even have spoken about?

This is a random picture of a cadet online.
I guess it makes me question who we are sending over there.
Who are we making our official representatives?
I question this kids judgement.
I don't question his commitment and sincere beliefs,
but we are sending kids out there.
America doesn't know how to be an adult.

I didn't get into Teach for America.
I don't understand.
I thought I had a good interview.
I really feel passionate.
I thought my presentation was well done.
I'm not sure what else it could have been aside from my grades.
I'm really upset and disappointed by this.
I feel kind of heartbroken.
I didn't get into my plan B.

Aside from that bad news,
which has been bothering me for some time now,
the night was good.

It was great catching up with Vicki.
Her friend Julie was nice.
She travels all around the country
setting up computer systems in hotels.
I really need to find a life plan.
I have no idea what I'm going to do for myself.
What is going to happen if I don't get into med school?
I hate this uncertainty.
I have spent $160,000 on my education,
and I am unhirable.

You can't do anything with a science degree.
F* * *
I have no idea what I'm going to do.
F* * *

Sorry, depression setting in.
I thought for sure I'd get in to Teach for America.
It was my back up plan!

Moving on I guess.
I don't want to tell my mother.