Presentation tomorrow.
So happy to be done.
I notice when I'm stressed,
my creative juices flow more.
I crave writing, and painting,
and photography.

My goal for the next two weeks is to center myself.
I am going home,
catching up with Andrew,
seeing my entire giant Cuban family,
getting my wisdom teeth pulled out,
back to school shopping,
and collecting my thoughts and ideas.

I need clarity and definition.
I need to focus on what my goals are,
and how I'm truly going to achieve them.
I will further elaborate on this,
when I personally have them straight.

I am happy to go home.
My teeth hurt!!!!
I hate wisdom teeth.
I'm actually looking forward to this surgery!!
Crazy.



Summer needs to come to an end.
I feel disappointed and in worse shape than I began.
Sadly,
from this dispair,
I feel inspired,
I understand why artists must be tortured to truly make art.

Are you an Old Spice Man?

Just saw the funniest commercial for old spice,
which begs the question now,
are you an old spice man?

More to come once I finish my presentation,
and I get my wisdom teeth pulled,
and my perpetual head ache stops.

More Behavior Testing.

More behavior testing.
More odd results I have to come up
with an explanation for.
Here is some stuff found in my boredom.
I was inspired by Paul Krassner's Disney Parody below.
Nothing as good was found, but here are some funny ones to share.


In 1967, Paul Krassner published Mad artist Wally Wood’s parody as a centerspread for his satirical magazine, The Realist, and then as a poster.

Here are some other Disney parodies.






In other news...TODAY IS HARRY POTTER DAY!!!!!!
Will post all about tonight's silliness tomorrow!!!

Now I'm going to finish behavior
and GET OUT OF HERE!!!!

Cheer Up.

Its been a few days.
They haven't been crazy,
but they have been plenty busy.
Saturday I went to lunch with Jess at Zea's Rotisserie.
VERY good.
The prices for dinner may not be worth it,
but for lunch it was a great meal.
I had veal with sweat snap peas
and buttered sweet potato!
YUMMY...just writing about it makes me want some now!

Currently I'm waiting to do behavior and inject some ratty rats.
Yuck!

Then after lunch Jess and I saw
Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix.
LOVED it!!!
SO much better than the other movies.
I liked it so much I went with Katy and Haylie
to try and see it at the IMAX theater in Covington.
Unfortunately the IMAX showing was sold out.
Boo.

But we saw it on the regular screen again,
which I didn't mind so much.
I really liked it!
It was dark and intense.
I'm so glad the kids are growing up.
Rupert Grint was pretty cute too!
I hadn't really noticed him before.

Before:


After:

I couldn't find a very good pic online...:-(

There are also more nuiances to the film
Now I can't wait for the 7th book!
Though I may just need to skip to 6 and read fast.
I've been really bad about just picking up the books.
Plus I've been busy too.

I'm trying to finish up the first batch of
secondary applications.
Seriously, the University of Minnesota has 12 questions!
I mean...come on!
But New Jersey only had two, so I went ahead and got that one done.
I just need to reread and get the courage to turn it in.

I did those Saturday afternoon.
At this point Ashley had come in.
She stayed with me that night
and then we moved her in to her new place Sunday.
Then we moved her into her new new place Monday.
But I was treated to Baskin Robbins...woot woot.

Though weird things happened.
We were sitting outside Baskins
and a couple approached us.
They were asking for money,
wife had surgery,
kicked out of brother's house,
need $27 for a motel.

I think in the past I would have ignored them.
But I've been on a social justice kick.
And even if they were lying,
to put your pride aside and ask,
they probably really needed it.
I gave them the $7 in my wallet.

Even now, part of me is thinking,
why?
But even if I was taken advantage of,
atleast I feel like a decent person for trying to take care of our society.
Now I am bummed out.
I can't wait to finish these rats.

I'm supposed to get together with Jenny tonight.
Which means no reading today.
Argh! I love seeing everyone and having a life,
but I am such a loner!!!
I think if I had just had one afternoon this weeekend
I wouldn't be feeling quite so edgey.
Plus work doesn't make me any happier.

So all my Rainbow Brite stuff here...is to make me happy!
Because I feel more like Stormy.


I want to feel like this:



Toooo funny...and perfect!
She could SOOOOOO make that movie!
And I would totally buy a ticket!!!

Mug Night.

What a great night.
Went to The Bulldog with Katy.
We ended up going to the Mid City Bulldog.
I've only ever been to the Uptown one on Magazine,
but they are under renovations right now.
The Mid City one is huge and quite lovely.


Wednesday is mug night,
so we had a few pints.
My personal favorite has to be the
"One for the Ladies."
On the pint glass is a picture of a
man in an American Flag speedo!
Too much! Too much!
Coincidentily, only Katy and I got one of those.
Hmmmmm....
I'll have to put a picture of them on here another day.


Here are some sample glasses.

The selection of beer was amazing.
I had a Stell Artois, which is a Belgium beer
and a Rogue, Chocolate, which is brewed in Oregon.
The Rogue had quite an after taste/bite.
Both were interesting
and quite enjoyable.


The selection on draft.

Afterwards we went to Bruno's.
Vodka tonics for life.
We were engaged in quite the political talk.
It was pleasant enough.
Then I went home
and slept like a baby.

I have my interview with Princeton Review today!
Fingers crossed.
I need to finish my "lesson."
I'm starting to get worried its not creative enough.
I am teaching basic piano...how to read notes.
Oh boy!
Katy made a turkey sandwich for her interview.
We'll see how this rolls!!!

More to discuss later!

Why, hello there?

What a surprise!
I woke up from my nap
and was debating ordering Fresco's
when we heard a knock on the door.
Who is it?
Why it's my mother!

They drove all the way from Graceland
to New Orleans today.
Coincidently my phone ran out of batteries.
Thus, it was charging, on off mode
while I napped.

It worked out really well though.
We went out to Superior Grill.
(Seriously, I've spent way too much time there this summer!)
No margaritas tonight.
but that is A-ok with me.
It was soooo good seeing them.
Sometimes you just need a hug!

It reminds me of this moment from the Chipmunks adventure.

Unfortunately this version is with real voices.
Its cuter in the Chipmunk, overdosed on Helium voice,
but the idea is pretty clear...
I love my mother!

Well...good night!

PS...HP OOTP is officially out today!!
Must call Katy and get to movie theater!!!

Sublime.

Summertime...and the livin's easy.

Maybe too easy.
No work yesterday,
and all I did was lounge about.
Today was pretty much more of the same.
Though I did manage to get up and go to the UC.
I had chicken tenders and diet coke for lunch.
Then I read and caught up with some people on the phone.

Plans with Jenny fell through tonight.
I hate not having a car.
Boo!
Though it did give me the chance to upload my Sublime CD
AND mess with photoshop.

Lookie lookie!

Pretty! haha...or so I'd like to believe.

In fact, I find the above version a bit over done.
This version is my personal favorite.



Though this one is fun too.
I may even like the graphic background a little better than the fleur de lis.



Well...not too much to report.
I am now on page 509 of HP 4.
Only 225 more to go.
I really need to read HP 5 and 6 ASAP!
Those were really the ones I wanted to get to,
but alas, I just haven't moved as fast as I should have.
I'm hoping to finish HP 4 by Wednesday...
we'll see how busy I am....
HAHA!

Anyhooo...
listening to Sublime...
catch you later.

I don't practice Santeria
I ain't got no crystal ball
Well I had a million dollars,
but I,
I spent it all...

Wisdom Hurts.

What I've learned from my wisdom teeth.
1. Pain Tolerance
I have dealt with way toooo many sleepless nights. :-(
2. Follow your Doctor's advice.
When Dr. Alfano said to remove them, we should have...3 years ago.
3. Independence
They have hurt me so much, I finally realized I needed to see a dentist while away at school. I had to give my insurance info, play phone tag, fill my prescription all by myself, which is good life experience. Plus, I've learned to question my parents decisions.

I think that's about it.
Finally got to the dentist today.
Ah! Great straight teeth,
no braces, thank you much!
However, my enamel is very bad.
Can't win them all I suppose.


Here is a picture showing the pain of wisdom teeth...

Wisdom teeth hurt.
Mine are impacted
Which hurt more.
One is decaying since it couldn't get in
and that has been quite painful.
The dentist was quite horrified today.
He prescribed penicillin if it gets infected and swells,
vicoden if it hurts,
and flouride toothpaste to keep things contained.



Impacted wisdom tooth...

Other than feeling like an adult,
I cashed my checks,
scoped out my books for the fall
and had a pizza party for LAMP tonight.
There was a low turn out,
but it was nice.

Below is a just an added extra.
I saw it on Rosie's website.
I think it sums up many people's anger
and disappointment with our current
government quite nicely.

Independence Day

Happy Fourth of July.
Happy 231st birthday America.
I feel so bittersweet about celebrating this year.
I think we have lost the meaning of "Independence."

It is not just relinquishing ourselves from British rule,
it is about having the stregnth to remain independent.
Our policies and nation building efforts have made us imperialistic.
We are an imperialistic nation.
We have lost the values our nation was founded on.
Within ourselves we have become intolerant, scared and complacent with the gradual elimination of our freedoms (habeus corpus, cough, senior bush).
On an international level we are controlling, minipulative and an all around control freak.

We must regain the values of tolerance, consideration and peace set forth by the writers of our constitution.
It is called Independence Day for a reason.
Our simplistic minds may prefer July 4th,
but the history of holiday should not be lost admist fancy fireworks and tasty barbeques.

Today Ashley and I went shopping at the mall.
I got two really cute tank tops!
One good for my presentation later this summer
if I can find a jacket for over top.
Later we went to Wal Mart...more cheap love.
Then went to Superior Grill,
where I could not help but get a margarita and the enchilladas.
YUUmmmmYYY!!!!

After dinner we had desert at Sucre.
I would not recommend the Cafe Glace...
I should have known by the bullshit name that
the drink itself was bullshit.
It was an over priced frappucino...which is sort of silly since those are overpriced anyhow.

Post desert we went to the top of the parking garage and watched the fireworks.
It was a lovely evening,
though as I said before, I find the entire holiday bitter this year.
Over the course of the year,
my political beliefs have started to be defined by my personal beliefs, not whom my parents should say I should vote for.
I feel this is an important step in maturing,
and I hope to keep this same level of passion towards it in the future.

Wow...started drifting there...
the point was...
I'm not happy with how our country is looking.
The pendulum must swing back.
We have gone too far.
The tide of change is flowing.
I hope by this time next year to feel differently and proud of my nation.
I hope we will all learn from the gross abuses in power both internally and externally our nation is fostering.

Happy Fourth of July!


What we are???


What we were.

Oh Scooter!

Oh Scooter!
I'm disappointed in our system.
The current administration has found and exploited every loop hole.
At one point, honor and integrity were at the very least a well kept front.
Are they even trying???
I'd like my lies told to me in a deciptive fashion, thank you.
Blatant abuse of power is just infuriating.

The story is so twisted...here is the basic run down on how the story goes...thus so people aren't confused:

Scooter leaks the name of a secret CIA agent to a few government officials as well as reporters.
WHY?
Perhaps it is because Valerie Plame, the CIA agent, is married to man who has publicly denounced the war.

Fall out occurs and it is traced to Libby...a federal case is brought up...Scooter blubbers and lies and "forgets" and screws up the trial.

Thus he is charged with purgery, obstruction of justice etc and sentenced to 2.5 years of prison, probation and a $250,000 fine.

Yesterday, Senior Bush takes away his jail sentence after all of Libby's appeals are up. Hmmm....this smells fishy...
WHY would Bush care to defend him? Isn't he a tough vigilante??
Well...perhaps there is more of a connection than initially meets the eye. We certainly have no proof, but draw your own conclusions.

Here is an interesting clip of "Real Time with Bill Maher" which sheds some perspective on the story. This clip is from a few months back, so some of their questions and predictions are quite poignant...



NOTE: "We're going to f*&% em'. Who's em?"



Valerie Plame...whom they have already f-ed over.


How Scooter got his nickname...hehe


And what a dorky nickname it is...Scooter is an adorable muppet baby...not an evil mastermind.

Eh, enough of this political stuff...in much better news...
I don't have to go to work the rest of this week!
Whooo hoooooOooOOOooo!
Happy 4th of July!

Ratatouille!

What a great weekend!
Saturday was quite productive.
I got my laundry done, vacuumed and
cleaned up a bit.
Then I went out to Taco Bell with Megan,
and later on Ms. Mae's.

It was such a great night.
We met so many new people.
Played pool and foos ball
(which Megan and I beat two very cute guys in twice!)
Didn't pay for a single drink the entire night.
And woke up with out a hangover!
phew...I was starting to worry lately about my new found sensitivity.

Babysat on Sunday for Nolan and Anna.
We went to Audubon Park, had Sno Balls
and basically sweated our toushies off!
It was nice to get some sun though.
I actually ran into Jenny, my lab person,
and found out I didn't need to show up today!
Whoo hooo!

It has been one great day!
Slept in till 11am,
watched Wimbledon...did anyone see Serena's cramp??
That was CRAZY!!! Poor thing. Thank god it started raining!
I have now officially decided to follow tennis.

Going food shopping with Ashley later.
She's staying at my place for the week.
Some more fun.
I also found out I don't have to work Wednesday or Thursday.
A Gold Star Weekend.
Tuesday we are having a make-up 21st birthday,
and hopefully hitting the mall Wednesday.
Gym Tonight!!! It has to happen!!!

Whew...lots going on.
Glad its not work!
I just have really checked out.
We'll see how the gym trip works out.
Saw Ratatouille yesterday...very cute.
Sort of hyped up, but I really enjoyed it.
I want to see Sicko...
maybe I'll bring it up and we'll do it Wednesday when we hit the mall.

Available? Available for what?

Another rainy day.
Its actually been quite a pleasant weekend.
Shola is out of town,
thus I slept the entire night without waking up to her snoring.
No trains.
Ah, bliss.

It has finally cleared up and some boys are playing soccer on the field outside my window.
To bad its not shirts and skins, eh.
Wow, I've been a little boy crazy lately.
That's normally not like me,
but its summer, its hot, and I'm bored.

I've been watching movies all day.
First it was "The Cutting Edge 2"
Then "Center Stage,"
and finally The Chipmunks Great Adventure."

Here is a fabulous preview:


The Cutting Edge 2 was soooo teeny boppy...and I loved every minute of the horror!
Center Stage sends me right back to 8th grade.
I LOVE that movie.
It once again is awful, but the dancing is beautiful.
Plus it has the actress that plays Eva Rodriguez...I need to find out who she is...I adore her.

Finally...The Chipmunks!
Cartoons from the 80's have such a different aesthetic and feel.
I am proud to say I still enjoy a good kid's movie (I long to see Ratatouille!).
But I am disappointed by so much of the mainstream animation.
Now, Pixar/ Disney certainly have their hits,
but they are so different than classic disney.
I can't wait to see the "Frog Princess."
I hope more info comes out on that soon.
In the meantime...here's some commentary:


But back to the Chipmunks...what a great cartoon that was.
The Chippettes were my favorite.
Interesting to note though, Alvin and Britney were the leads,
but they were the most obnoxious, egotistical and stupid...hmm...guess they were supposed to be the pretty ones.

Regardless...this movie is such a fun story, and genuinely entertaining.
Its great animation, great songs and great story...as close to 80's/90's Disney greatness as we're going to get.
Here are some fun stills

Movie Poster

The Chipettes!






Not a great photo...but Miss Miller rocks! "Available? Available for what?"

A Gold Star Day

Missed the shuttle.
Got an apology from the Lt.
though that does nothing about
getting from point A to B.
Though once I got to lab
it was pretty smooth sailing.
Accepting my lot this summer has made quite a change in my attitude.

Took such a good nap today.
Only problem is that I keep having these naps
where I wake up, snooze the alarm
and think I'm in an experiment.
Recording my time in the dark.
Obviously it is more like a dream,
which implies an abstract feeling,
not literally keeping time.

My netflix finally came in today.
I just saw "Notes on a Scandal."
It was delicious!
A Gold Star movie.

Judi Dench was incredibly creepy.
I finally realize what the big deal about Cate Blanchett is.
And the 15 year old boy, Andrew Simpson,
with whom Cate has sex with in the movie is gorgeous.
I was taken back by just how lovely he is.
So here is some eye candy to enjoy!

Some of my favorite quotes from the movie:

"bourg-bohemia"

"Kids are feril. Don't let them sense your anxiety."

"A gold star for the day."

"The boy done her like a kicker."

Chinese in a Can

Today was another frustrating day at work.
I really dislike my project and talking with Dr. T
did not go as planned.
He wants me to carry on,
though my results have been opposite of what is seen in various papers.
I'd prefer a different project,
but maybe that makes me a quitter.
Dr. T, literally told me to get out of the dark side of box.
He used my paradigm as a metaphor!!!!
yuck!

I just really want to know I'm doing something meaningful.
This work is such a shot in the dark if you ask me.
Hopefully I'll be proven wrong and it works.
During behavior today I realized that I am so frustrated that I could
careless if it turns one way or another.
Here's hoping for clear results, either way.

In other news...had to miss bowling today :-(
Ended up taking the later shuttle home.
Then napped from 6pm till 10pm.
I was really excited about my chinese food in a can.
I should have known better.
Man was it awful.
Four bites and I"m feeling queasy.

I need sleep.
I don't think I'll be getting much of it this weekend.
Megan is awesome, but energy consuming.
I need sleep.
I am such a loner.
I can't handle friends during the week...gosh I"m such a five year old!
That's not 100% true,
but I could just as easily and happily sleep tomorrow.
I hate that everyday this week,
while at work all I wanted to do was sleep.

Ok, positive for today:
Brian got his grant funding today!
So proud, and hopefully he will be much happier.

Another laughable moment:
Behind closed doors,
bitching about stuff,
Jenny tells Kendrick and I,
"Don't go to grad school. You two better get into med school."

HAHA....working on it!!!

Damn its only Tuesday

I'm never gonna drink again!
Ok, that is a blatant lie,
but damn I feel like shit today.

Megan came into town.
We stopped by Martin's but it was closed.
Ended up at Whole Food buying wine.
Then did dinner at Superior Grill.
Yum.

I had Enchilladas Suiza con Pollo,
guacamole dip, and margaritas!
Ohhh it was delicious.

Back to my place.
One bottle of chardonay down.
Off to Bruno's, $3 pitchers.

Was home relatively early,
but we had lab meeting today.
I got to present my results.
Which would have been great had my experiment worked.

I just generally feel like crap.
And whining makes me feel better.
I want to puke.
I can't believe it is nearly 2pm and I still feel this shitty.

I'm doing behavior on rats.
Ew, does it smell.
I need to find a new gig.
Damn its only Tuesday.

But in funnier times...my favorite quote from yesterday....

"Megan, you're like a three year old in the bath tub, now give me my wine."

In lab today.
There is no reason for me to be here.
May have to exit early.
Though I probably will stay for lunch.
Coffee is good.

Surfing the internet is fun.
Some interesting stuff out there.
I've only very recently started to feel
that I've begun to define my political beliefs.

Here is a snippet from an interesting article on a possible US Invasion of Iran posted on the Huffington Post by Glenn Greenwald:

"Because as long as we are committed to dominating that region, we are going to be engaged in a long and likely endless series of brutal wars against religious fanatics and various nationalists who simply do not want us there and are willing to fight to the death -- making all sorts of sacrifices themselves -- to prevent us from dominating their countries.

Yet we lack the willingness -- and perhaps the ability -- to make the sacrifices necessary to maintain imperial dominion over that region. The president has literally pretended that this is not the case by insisting on our divine entitlement to magical victory over Evil, and depicting those who claim otherwise as people who hate the troops and do not want to win.

The damage done to the United States by the Bush administration over the last six years is truly severe. It is fundamental damage, and it requires much, much more than some tinkering around the edges. America urgently needs to debate and re-examine the core premises of our foreign policy and our role in the world. That, in turn, requires a willingness to transcend the taboos and most sacred orthodoxies and to dispense with the Manichean delusions that have substituted for rational debate."

AMCAS has been turned in.
Scary. Scary. Scary.
So super nervous.
Crossing my fingers.

Had nearly the entire day to myself for once.
It was wonderful.
The roomie is super sweet,
but a bit of a home body.

The only trouble with staying in all day
is that I feel very shlubby.
I should have gone to the gym and did laundry.
My guilt is amounting slightly,
but it was such a great day.

Mostly just sat around.
Watched the tube.
Played on the internet.
Realized how lonely I am.

Well...that was depressing and just a tad emo.
We all have those moments I suppose.
But as of tomorrow, the "get right" plan begins.

I'll explain more if it works!

Happy Birthday to ME!

So my 21st birthday has come and gone. It was a great time. Dinner, Pat O'Briens for hurricanes and Uptown Cajun for shots and a few pitchers of Abita Amber. No complaints from this happyily un-hungover 21 year old!

Yea, I don't hang over easily, plus I decided that I'd rather remember my birthday this year. It was a great time, out with the girls. The weather was beautiful for summer in New Orleans. Low humidity, still kind of warm and sticky, but not a bad hair day, so yay! Happy birthday to me!
Wow I feel old. Another thing about living in New Orleans...I've been partying for so long underage, being legal kind of takes the thrill out of it. Isn't that silly? I guess part of it is that so few places card here, that the "special" factor is taken away.

Just for fun, some little known alcohol facts about New Orleans:

1) Only about 20% of the bars in the city card...no lie, I have actually seen a friend hand over a library card once and gotten in.

2) To Go Cups...if you aren't finished...pack it in plastic and be on your way.

3) Plastic Covers...be sure if you are driving to get a cover for that To Go Cup.

4) If you are under 21 and drinking in a private residence, it is perfectly legal. When the cops come knocking at your house party its only to tell you to lower the music.

It is a great city to come of age in...hurricanes aside. So overall, a very happy birthday to me!
And of course thanks to my very wonderful and lovely friends who made it such an amazing time!

Ahhh...two caca roaches in one dinner!

My lovely friend Katy and I both had insanely horrible days at work. What better way to solve the work time blues than food shopping at Wal-Mart, right?

Haha, well, I can't lie, it sort of worked. Commercialism, blatant materialism and the chance to spend my first paycheck bigger than $60 bucks in a looong time was pretty fantastic. We discussed our mutual scorn for Wal-Mart produce, Katy's fear of any meat other than venison (meat snob from Wisconsin), and my concern over if the jello would melt and go bad if I didn't keep it in the fridge? Does anybody know that answer...its the precupped(is that a word?) jello? I have one of those tiny college fridges that are absolutely useless, except to store one can of coke and one bottle of vodka. Oh life's subtle mysteries.

Anyway, after dropping my stuff off at campus, we hit her sublet for dinner. It is a tiny little building with a tight stair well, but once inside it opens up to a spacious living room, with gorgeous wood floors, tall windows and high cielings. These are the things I love about New Orleans.
The things I don't love about New Orleans?? The cacaroaches. I grew up in Florida, so we always called them cacaroaches...most people probably just call them roaches. Potato, potato...as I was taking out a spoon to stir the ravioli, out flies, yes FLIES! a giant roach!

As I scream and dance like a mad woman, wondering what thing just grazed my arm, I see the little bugger scuttle off under the dryer. Katy comes in, just in time to see the tail end of the 3 inch roach. I kid you not, the roaches in New Orleans are huge and equipped with wings. They have also been rumored to live in the pipes and crawl up through the toilet. I'd really prefer to believe that isn't true, or else I may have to invest in Depends until I graduate.

Now, I can laugh off a roach. Sure they are scary at first, but now that we were on roach alert, I'd be ready to stomp and Katy grabbed the spray. She prefers the spray and catch method, I on the other hand have no qualms about stepping on them, more regional differences I suppose. Roach #1 wasn't coming out, so we commenced preparing dinner, and as I was washing out the pot...what do I find???? Roach #2 crawling on the counter, towards the very sink I am washing the pot in!

Once again, I scream and dance like a mad woman. I drop the pot and the roach crawls behind the microwave. Now, you must be thinking, what kind of dirty house keeper is Katy? I swear she is one of the cleanest people I know (which maybe doesn't speak much for my friends...hmmm). Truthfully though, giant flying roaches are as much a part of New Orleans living as beignets and hurricanes. They are just a hell of a lot scarier.

In conclusion, I am happy to report we did catch one of the roaches. Roach #1 decided to crawl out of the dryer in the middle of dinner. So we were able to corner him behind the garbage can, then he made a daring exit by flying into the hallway, were Katy used her stunning roach spray powers to get him. We then trapped him under some Tupperware until he stopped moving. Roach #2 is still on the loose. We suspect he is somewhere behind the toaster oven and the microwave.

I have safely returned home. I don't really know what kind of damage roaches do, other than scare us, but I'd rather not risk it. Any of you know?? Regardless, I hope all of you sleep better knowing there is one less roach in the world!

Summer Storm.

So much of the world fascinates me.
Incredible to think any of us have a place here.
Oak trees planted hundreds of years ago.
Attempting to be a doctor.
Wanting an office and a house.
Wanting to travel.
Wanting to make a family.
So much contradiction.
How does one enjoy their youth with all this?
Hard to make a decision.
That's the brave part.
Easy to stick to the path.
Scary not to succeed along it.
Scarier to stray from it.
Scariest not knowing what's next.

Storming outside.
Two hours now.
Lightning, thunder, the usual.
Got caught outside.
Hung out reading HP at Newcomb.
Decided to stay wet, buy Southern Pecan coffee and read some more at PJs.

Shola sleeps peacefully.
No trains this afternoon.
Time to turn in my AMCAS.
Scary.