So Here is Where I Stand

So, here's where I stand.
1. James bond Party tomorrow
- Vicki's sweet 16, I'm excited...mocktails, poker, assassin, formal wear and photos...it should be a pretty awesome house party! That is IF I can pull this off by tomorrow. I have been so swamped this week I haven't had a chance to do anything. In addition to basic party stuff like food, cake, drinks I'm also making "missions" for the kids to accomplish, and I need to come up with prizes. Also decorating! We have a casino area, bar area, living room with movies and sexy lady silhouettes and a mini photo studio!!! phew! Tomorrow is going to be a loong day!



2.Way too many assignments
- For my Teaching Biology course we have to come up with Inquiry based lessons...so I'm meeting with my classmate Sunday. Trying to figure out a simple way to explain cellular respiration. HA!
Just a recap for those who forgot about this lovely nonesense from bio.


- For the same course I have a presentation this week on an important scientist. Naturally I chose Stanley Prusiner, a prion researcher. I think prions are so fascinating, but I made this 10 times more difficult for myself by choosing an obscure topic that I have to explain.
-And my Teaching and Management Philosophy is also due next week. Luckily I did about half, but that still leaves me with some work to do!
- AND another random assignment for my adolescent learner course...gahh!!!
Everything is going so fast.




3. Substitute Training
- Yea, that's three days next week! Can't wait for 3 days of work, without pay when I'm swamped by assignments! Though now I'll be able to work. I am sure I can handle it all. I've done way more in the past. It's just I'm so relaxed now. Without going into details its like my body has recovered. I'm in tune with the moon so to speak (ladies get my drift). I sort of don't recognize my face without bags and I'm definitely getting to know myself better. Hopefully I can maintain what I've learned on sabatical.




4. Tutoring
-Took on a tutoring client. She's very sweet, I meet her twice a week, but I recently found out she may not be as forthcoming about her grades and problem areas as I initially thought. I'm almost wishing I hadn't taken her as a client. Especially this week, I'm feeling swamped.




5. Dating
- Not quite as busy like when I was seeing 3 guys at the same time this summer, but seeing someone. Don't know what I'm thinking. It's completely impractical. I know I don't have time for it this week. This is always my problem. No time, always thinking of whether it will work long term (which I know this wouldn't). I'm trying to break my own patterns, at least for fun's sake. I just don't know, don't know, don't know.

This is what I got when I googled fun...how silly!



But yea, so that's what's going on,
and I feel better.
Time to partaaayy!

From Here On Known as Soco.

I was asked again by an old friend what my post-gradutation plans were.
Embarassingly, I again had to say I have no idea.
He is going to UVA,
on a full ride,
for his Master's in Roman Art.
I am so happy for him.
I am so disappointed in myself.
I feel so directionless,
and lost and I don't know what to do anymore.
I came up with a plan,
but I don't have confidence in myself to pull it all off.
How utterly frustrating!



Aside from my real life woes,
I had a nice, distracting weekend.
Friday we had a Hullabaloo Fair.
There was a hot dog eating contest.
Eight guys participated.
Winner at 9 hotdogs in 4 minutes.
Gross.
But...it was highly entertaining.

Cecilia turned 19 this weekend.
So we bought a bottle of Southern Comfort,
from here out known as Soco.
Had about 5 Soco and Lime shots,
played some Uno,
and then went out to Brunos.

New Bruno's first.
Some dart, Chris won.
Then Old Bruno's.
After a Corona and 2 Margaritas,
we were properly lit.
Played some pool,
took goofy pictures.
Damnit, I am breaking out like crazy!
I need my body to chill out.

As though that is possible these days.
Between worrying about post-graduation life,
unsuccessfully following weight watchers,
and the mountain of school work I have this semester,
my body doesn't know the meaning of relaxation anymore.

I am reading Eat Pray Love
by Elizabeth Gilbert currently.
It is amazing.
In it she writes about meditation in the ashram in India.
I need to try meditation.
I need time to clear my head.
Which is why, almost not having a plan post-graduation,
may be my saving grace.
I'm trying to spin this...
let me be as delusional I a want!



Ok...well what is not a delusion is the first draft of my 20 page paper due manana!
Time to focus...it's carnival time.
Well my paper is on the spectacle known as Mardi Gras,
too bad analyzing it destroys all happiness surrounding the event.
Once you realize the racist undertones,
and what a celebration of the elite it is,
it's a bit of a buzz kill.

Bitch is the New Black.

Oh Tina Fay! Great job! I know it is meant to be funny, but it completely makes sense.

I have lots of work to do.
My sleep schedule is way off.
I am staying up till 4/5/6am, then sleeping 12 hours.
This is not a functional schedule!
I don't know how to fix it,
and it sort of scares me.

Well...biopsych, african art and a paper proposal.
Should be a horrible week.

Last week I went to Upperline.
It is an amazing restaurant.
I wish I could afford to eat there more often!
I had duck with a peach ginger sauce,
and creme brule.
Muy sabrosa!

Putting My Life Back Together.

--From HiFructose Magazine, Brian McCarty...awesome.

Above is how I feel.
I'm not angry or upset anymore.
I'm not depressed, but I'm not happy.
I'm floating.
Lost admist all those unidentifiable shapes.
I identify with the sachrine colors, the happy sky, the free fall of it.
But I also see the dry cracked earth, the creepy little plastic figures, painted so happy, flying free in the breeze.
With it, but outside it all.
Clearly the meds have made me sentimental.
I love art.

This flu has kicked my behind.
I slept all day,
but at least now I feel like doing work.
I am finally getting things accomplished.
I only have 3 more readings for my impressionism course.
Test on Tuesday.
A 10 page paper for African Art...
that is super late, but hopefully she will accept it
b/c I love her...and I hope she loves me!
A biopsychology exam Thursday,
and job fair Tuesday.
Time to update the old CV...